Yesterday, I jumped!
The alarm clock rings, 5.15am, as every morning, I stretch in my bed, I smile (life is beautiful, isn’t it?)… and the thinking machine activates… the papers to sign for my kids, all the e-mails left unanswered, the mails I urgently have to bring to the post-office, the errands list… I quickly grab my notebook, my best companion to avoid missing anything and here I am, half sleepy, half awaken, writing down every item that crosses my mind… the pen goes by itself on the paper to finally slip from my hand…
Now I see myself in a quite crazy unrealistic situation… after months of what I could qualify as a “golden hell”, I have made my decision and quit my job. I traded my employee position, with an income a lot of people around me would crave to have, but where fulfillment was close to the absolute zero, for the big unknown… you see, this situation where you absolutely don’t know what comes next, where you wonder if you have made the right decision for you (don’t care about your “friends” in this case, they always call you fool!), and where you also don’t know how much you will earn from now on?
But this morning, I smile a lot more than usual, as if all those questions were already addressed and the answers fit my mindset! I smile since it is my first day of complete freedom… no matter what time it is and what I must achieve today… I will accomplish it, whatever happens! I feel absolutely energized and ready to move mountains! I completely let it go this morning and I welcome and embrace this new life like a present I offered myself.
Fears? Of course… I will compose with it… they will be temporary anyway and I have big things to achieve, so… not really a got time to start ruminating on my fears, that are much less real than the pen I am holding right now! And again, even if I remember this feeling called “fear of the unknown”, this morning looks different!
Doubts? Not at all! That was yesterday! The sun now rises and it is time to pay it a tribute and prepare this beautiful day. I planned several rendez-vous, presentations, signatures on a professional perspective… contacts, laughs, joy, good mood on the personal side, a little bit of Aïkido to keep my energy level high and keep grounded, and some messages from my partner I will meet soon again! I can’t wait!
I stretch again and get up, ready to meditate with my mentor, Deepak Choprah, but instead of his sweet and hypnotizing voice (I usually fall asleep during my meditations!), my Ipod is playing the sound of David Guetta this morning! What? Not that accurate for a meditation! I try to fix this “sound issue” with all the sweetness I am able of… when I come to the consciousness that I have been transposed in another reality! A couple seconds to think about it and make sure that I am in a dream and it’s time to find how I can escape it!
I blench suddenly, my pen just fell, David woke me up and my hand is still on my notebook. First thought: “What day are we?” I look around to find the answer: “ah, ok, Wednesday June 1st… I try to gather my thoughts and wake up a little bit more… YEAAAAH! Epiphany! It’s official! Yesterday, I jumped! Let’s start this new life! Knowing that I finally dared to pursue my dreams gives me the necessary boost of energy to go out of my bed! Hi-five and let’s go!